Arnold Schwarzenegger writes about how Maria Shriver confronted him about love child in new book

Arnold Schwarzenegger has a new memoir out called Total Recall: My Unbelievably True Life Story. In it, he reveals how he finally came clean about the love child he fathered with his housemaid.

The New York Daily News reports that Schwarzenegger says that Shriver waited until after his term as California governor was over and that she had long suspected that he cheated on her.

They went to couples counseling, where he was finally confronted about the affair. The counseling session was supposed to help them transition back to private life, but the topic quickly veered from there. “The minute we sat down, the therapist turned to me and said, ‘Maria wanted to come here today and to ask about a child — whether you fathered a child with your housekeeper Mildred,’” the action star wrote.

“I told the therapist, ‘It’s true,’” he wrote.

According to ABC News, the 65-year-old star added that he began groveling, admitting that he “screwed up.” He still called Shriver the “perfect wife” and was still “turned on” by her. But that didn’t work and she since filed for divorce.

Schwarzenegger also reveals more details about his affair with Mildred Baena in 1996. It took place while he was filming Batman and Robin and he claims that he spent years trying to tell himself that her son was her husband’s, not his. “I realized there was little doubt that he was my son,” he writes after seeing the the boy’s resemblance.

He also says he kept it a secret out of embarrassment and that he never wanted to have to face the Kennedy family. “Instead of doing the right thing, I'd just put the truth in a mental compartment and locked it up where I didn't deal with it every day,” he wrote.

In admits to not knowing why he cheated and that he actually hopes to reunite with Shriver in the future.

“You can call this denial...But it's the way my mind works,” he wrote.

Total Recall will be released on Oct. 1.