Kourtney Kardashian Agonized Over Keeping Her Baby

When Kourtney Kardashian announced her pregnancy, it shocked just about everyone, including the star herself. Now Kourtney, 30, is talking about the "tough" decision she had to make upon finding out she was expecting.

A thought that crossed Kourtney's mind was whether she would keep her baby, or end up terminating it.

"I definitely thought about it long and hard, about if I wanted to keep the baby or not, and I wasn't thinking about adoption," Kardashian told People.

"I do think every woman should have the right to do what they want, but I don't think it's talked through enough. I can't even tell you how many people just say, 'Oh, get an abortion.' Like it's not a big deal."

When Kourtney found out she was pregnant, she was in the middle of filming her new reality show with sister Khloe. She was also dating her on-again off-again boyfriend, Scott Disick, but was keeping that under wraps.

The baby's father, which has been confirmed as Disick, was "supportive" of the decision Kourtney would make, no matter what it was. The couple was together for two years and split at the end of last year, but got back together once Kourtney found out she was pregnant.

"He wanted me to talk about it more, but I just kept to myself," says Kourtney. "He said, 'I really want you to keep it, but I will support you whatever you decide to do.'"

At the advice of her best friend, Kourtney went to her physician and discussed abortion. After discussing it with her doctor, she did some internet research on her own. While reading many stories about "guilt" after having an abortion and the risks, Kourtney realized abortion wasn't really an option for her.

"I was just sitting there crying, thinking, 'I can't do that,' and I felt in my body, this is meant to be. God does things for a reason, and I just felt like it was the right thing that was happening in my life."

Kourtney went on to say, "For me, all the reasons why I wouldn't keep the baby were so selfish: It wasn't like I was raped, it's not like I'm 16. I'm 30 years old, I make my own money, I support myself, I can afford to have a baby. And I am with someone who I love, and have been with for a long time."

While Kourtney turned to many for advice and their opinions, in the end the only decision that truly mattered was hers.

"I really wanted to think it through for myself, and not hear what my sisters were saying, or what Scott was saying. Even though I took it all in, I wanted it to be my decision. My doctor told me there is nothing you will ever regret about having the baby, but he was like, 'You may regret not having the baby.' And I was like: That is so true. And it just hit me. I got so excited, and when I told Scott he was so excited. But I think if I had said I'm not going to keep it, I really think he would have pushed me into keeping it."