Carrie Underwood shows off her toned body on and curves on the cover of Marie Claire, where she talks about having kids and handling fame at a young age thanks to winning American Idol.
Underwood, 30, gets very personal when she talks about having “only child syndrome” due to being much younger than the rest of the siblings.
“I'm a little more selfish, a little more independent, a little closed. I do wish I were softer. I wish I were able to form relationships better. But hey, I mean, I'm not a sociopath,” she tells the June issue of the magazine.
She also said, "I'm not a mushy person at all. We were never a huggy family. Or a 'let's talk it out' family.”
After winning Idol in 2005 and shooting the superstardom, Underwood talks about being pretty uncomfortable with it all. "At the beginning of my career, I used to have panic attacks. People were touching me, screaming - it made me really nervous. In public, I just get nervous. It's a physical reaction, feeling like the walls are closing in," she said.
She added, "The fans are great. It's not their fault. I don't ever want to come across as ungrateful. But on my end, it is hard for me to process because I am still just me,” NY Daily News reports.
As for having kids with her husband, Mike Fisher, the 6-time Grammy winner says she isn’t quite there yet.
“I don't feel old enough to have kids," she said. "I know I am mature. But being responsible for another human?"
image: Marie Claire