Nigella Lawson made her first television appearance since the scandal involving two former assistants, Francesca and Elisabetta Grillo, who allege she made a deal with them that they could use her former husband’s credit card in exchange for them keeping their silence on her drug use. She talked about testifying in their fraud case and admits to being stressed about the situation.

Lawson said she felt like she, herself, was on trial when she testified against the Grillo sisters and admitted her main focus was to protect her children.

"I can't really remember exactly because you're so focused on answering the questions to the best of your ability that actually you don't really have an enormous awareness of yourself. Maybe that's a good thing,” she said of testifying in court, The Telegraph reports.

She was on the ABC morning show to promote The Taste, for which she serves as a judge. She wasn't directly asked about her drug use, though.

Lawson continued, "My only desire really was to protect my children as much as possible which, alas, I couldn't always do. Actually since then I've eaten a lot of chocolate, had a very good Christmas and am into the New Year."

The Grillo sister, who worked for Lawson for 10 years, were acquitted of fraud charges filed against them by Lawson and her estranged husband Charles Saatchi. They were accused of using Saatchi’s credit card to buy 685,000 pounds (over $1 million) worth of unauthorized luxuries such as designer handbags and vacations.

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