Jesse James, the ex-husband of Oscar winner Sandra Bullock, talked about the end of their marriage and the worst part about it on In Depth With Graham Bensinger, saying he’s devastated he lost the son they adopted together because of the divorce.

The Monster Garage host split from Bullock in 2010 after confessing to being unfaithful. He said the hardest part of their divorce wasn’t losing the relationship, but losing his “son” Louis.

“The relationship part I was able to put [aside],” he said, Us Weekly reports. “I had to stand up in front of the media and take full account for what I did. And I took it all. I took 100 percent of it right on the chin. Nobody does that. Everybody denies it.”

After the split he checked into rehab and he told Bensinger the reason. “I’m the guy that ruined my marriage because I banged some stripper,” he said. “There’s got to be some flaw in my personality that made me think that was okay.”

Before Bullock found out about the infidelities, they brought home now 5-year-old Louis. He’s now blaming the fact that his ex-wife is an A-list actress on why he isn’t part of Louis’ life.

“I got divorced and lost a kid I adopted because of it,” he said. “Whether that’s fair, whether I should have lost a kid due to infidelity, which I don’t think anybody ever does. But I think with ‘Hollywood Law’ that’s totally fair.”

The “painful part” was not being able to be a father to Louis, saying “things got kind of good for a little while” in their relationship when they adopted him. But, “boom, it was over in 24 hours — gone, done.”

James is now remarried to drag racer Alexis DeJoria, who he married in 2013. Bullock is rumored to be dating photographer and former model Bryan Randall.

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