Jennifer Lawrence hates New Year’s Eve and doesn’t care who knows it. During an appearance on The Graham Norton Show, she said she’s never had an enjoyable night counting down the new year because of the impossible expectations set on it.

Lawrence talked about always ending up being “drunk and disappointed” by the end of the night.

“I really hate it,” she said, EW reports. “I’ve never had a good one — everyone’s chasing a good time and it’s always a disappointment. I plan on doing nothing and then if something lands in my lap … but I always end up drunk and disappointed.”

The Oscar winner went on to joke, “Drunk and Disappointed should be the title of my memoir!”

Lawrence will appear on Norton’s NYE special on Thursday with Eddie Redmayne at 10:45pm on BBC1. Both she and Redmayne also let out a secret, that they both threw up at one of Madonna’s parties.

“I threw up at Madonna's party—on the porch!" she said, admitting she’s a “puker.” Redmayne added, "This is something I have never admitted to the world, but I puked at Madonna's party, too!"