Funny lady, Sarah Silverman, revealed her life hasn’t always been as easy-going as the public may think.
In an interview with Glamour, the comedian opened up about her battle with depression. Silverman said she first experienced depression and panic attacks when she 13.
"People use 'panic attack' very casually out here in Los Angeles, but I don't think most of them really know what it is. Every breath is labored," she said.
"You are dying. You are going to die. It's terrifying. And then when the attack is over, the depression is still there," Silverman added.
The comedian explained that she went through several therapists during those years and at one point, was even taking 16 Xanax a day. With the help of a psychiatrist, she was able to slowly get off her medication and "finally feel like herself again."
Nine years later, a friend helped her get through another wave of depression.
"He found me a therapist at 2:00 A.M. and informed me that no, I would not be quitting SNL in the morning and moving back to New Hampshire," Silverman said.
"Instead I got a prescription for Klonopin, which blocks panic attacks. It saved my life, even when I was fired from SNL at the end of the season," she told Glamour.
Silverman has since lived with and learned to control her depression.
"The tough times, the days when you're just a ball on the floor—they'll pass. You're playing the long game, and life is totally worth it," Silverman said.
According to Marie Clarie, Silverman stars in the indie film, I Smile Back and plays a woman who is secretly battling mental illness. The film will be released on Oct. 23.