Kid Cudi has announced that he checked himself into a rehab facility and admitted to his fans, in a heartbreaking social media post, that he has suicidal thoughts.
On Tuesday, Oct. 4, the rapper penned an emotional letter to his fans explaining why he needed to get help now.
"Its been difficult for me to find the words to what Im about to share with you because I feel ashamed," he wrote in a lengthy Facebook post. "Ashamed to be a leader and hero to so many while admitting I've been living a lie. It took me a while to get to this place of commitment, but it is something I have to do for myself, my family, my best friend/daughter and all of you, my fans."
Kid Cudi, whose real name is Scott Mescudi, went on to reveal that he is "not at peace" and made the decision to check himself into rehab for "depression and suicidal urges."
"I checked myself into rehab for depression and suicidal urges. I am not at peace. I haven't been since you've known me. If I didn't come here, I wouldve done something to myself. I simply am a damaged human swimming in a pool of emotions everyday of my life. Theres a ragin violent storm inside of my heart at all times. Idk what peace feels like. Idk how to relax. My anxiety and depression have ruled my life for as long as I can remember and I never leave the house because of it. I can't make new friends because of it. I don't trust anyone because of it and I'm tired of being held back in my life."
Cudi concluded the letter by stating that he has a lot of emotions about the decision, but knew it was time to try and work through his issues.
"I'm scared, im sad, I feel like I let a lot of people down and again, I'm sorry. It's time I fix me. I'm nervous but ima get through this."
His brave admission drew support from other artists in the music industry including Pete Wentz and T. Carrier.
If you or someone you know is battling depression and has had thoughts of suicide call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-8255.